Tuesday, January 01, 2008 . 02:39

ok so 2008's here. the first 2hours 45 minutes or so have just passed. well before i go on and embrace this year. i wanna reflect. cliche i know. so sue me.


well last year was quite a revealing year for me. i think i saw a lot of the world, and i matured in terms of my thinking.

academics wise, i realised that we couldnt mess around like we did in p6 or sec 1 anymore. theres a time for play, but when studies come, we should focus and not be so carefree, like i always am. and i also began to think about my future. though it stemmed from the comparatively small decision of subject options, i started to think of what i wanted to be. so many people around me had a rough idea of their future career options. but for me that was just a big huge blank. i guess its just my nature to just think about the next week and not so far ahead, but it prompted me to start thinking of what im going to be when i grow up, both emotionally, work-wise, and spiritually.

as for my attitude and emotional life, etc, you get what i mean. it was quite a rollercoaster for me. well for one, i started off the year with below average self esteem. not low, i just didnt have that much self-confidence. but then as i, well, not to be blunt, but as i improved my looks, and told myself that i wasnt all that bad. i began to be to full of myself. even now, i know im too proud sometimes. and also at the start of the year, i wanted to DATE. ok i dont know what got into me and all, but i guess it was peer pressure and all that. but then i soon realised dating now is a really dumb thing. seriously. listen to me. if you are my age. dont date. yet.

as for my walk with God, for the most of this year i wasnt a really good christian. i didnt read the bible at all, i rarely prayed, i didnt pay attention for some of the sermons, etc. etc. but then came tackle camp. i mean, before this i felt, that yeah i was bad christian and all that, and i tried to change sometimes, to no avail, but i still felt that, well yeah but im still christian right. thats all that matters aint it. well wrong. the camp really touched my heart and really motivated me to really be the christian He wants us all to be. to be of the word the spirit and of faith.

well overall i think 2007 had its tough times, but i think i came out of it a better person.