Monday, June 30, 2008 . 21:32

i think i have managed to reach such a high level of hiding my emotions that i fool myself, sometimes.

like, it feels natural.

Saturday, June 28, 2008 . 17:39

gosh who are you to try to change my priorities. you're just another guy on the street. dont tell me what to do or not to do. idiot.



so today was camp echo. didnt go though cause of training. really wished i could have been there. yeah anyway the week has been tough and im beat now. tuition is going to horrible.

stupid parents. stupid teacher.

Thursday, June 26, 2008 . 21:16

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JANG AND (belated)LEON.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008 . 21:26

ahh boredom strikes
everything else was a blur
gathered at the shed putting scribbles down with our sweaty hands.
tapity tap away
feel the wind gently whistling by.
tick.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008 . 20:02

i dont fucking know what i can do anymore. even if my freaking arms drop off. we'll never be fast. even if i give a million pep talks. they will never change. even if i try to up my own rotation and maintain till my muscles burn and chest explodes. we'll still be wallowing in their back wash.

even if im faster than half the people in pairs/teams i dont get shit. its not as if i dont try. but it just doesnt seem to be paying off. for all these three screwed up years. three wasted years. each year i see my hopes rising, only to be crushed beyond any rebuilding.

its just not fair. and i dont see the point anymore. year after year, i tell me, everyone tells me, that theres always the next year. oh but who knew right, this year fucked up too.

Friday, June 20, 2008 . 21:37

took a what friend are you (or sth liddat) quiz. it was set with the target audience being girls. but really, theres no difference. just change everything from girl to guy and vice versa.

You are the fun one! It seems you are the one who seems to make a dull situation bright. You may not be the leader of the group, hell, you're downright indecisive, but when you and your friends get where you want to go, you enjoy making them laugh or just have a blast. However, sometimes your need to have a good time can be irritating to others, and you often laugh when things need to be serious. You are more trustworthy than people give you credit for, although you put that on yourself for people see you as the loud one, which for some people translates to: "he'll tell all my secrets."
However, although you love having fun, you may not be into the party scene and would rather hang out with your buds than go to a huge party. You are actually surprisingly emotional, but you set up a barrier for yourself and don't let others see your true feelings. You are very open-minded about most things, and when you're in the mood, you can have an extremely well-rounded and intellectual conversation, although you are most likely not the top of most of your classes. You tend to orbit around shyer friends for some reason. You are probably a girl's guy. You actually care about your friends more than they know, and you sometimes feel like they are taking you for granted.
The Good: You can make almost any situation light.
The Bad: You can sometimes go too far; and not know when it's not funny anymore.
The Ugly: You draw a lot of attention to yourself, and attention comes in both flavours: good and bad.
With Girls: You are very picky and indecisive. You may think you like a girl one day, but the next you like someone else. You like the chase more than the reward. Once you have a girl, you are generally the one who ends it. You like to have fun more than something serious, mainly because you're a closed book to girls, although you seem to understand them very well. You are sometimes very flirty. You may think you are looking for a solid relationship, but you have problems opening up to girls, and may feel like they're the ones being too emotional and open. Saying, 'I love you' is something you won't say unless you actually 100% think you mean it.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008 . 18:44

okayy, people, im back.

from one camp! woot. for those who missed it, go suck thumb! na na ne na na na ne na ne na na. ;D (sry inside joke) it was awesome.

basically there was 12 teams with names such as ninjas commandoes knights delta force, etc etc u get the idea, with 4 making one squad. land air and sea.

i dont feel like doing a long post describing every little thing that happened so yes, brief and general would do it.

first day was rather. awkward and clique-ish. since it was ttb-gb/bb-faithacts camp. so unsurprisingly people sticked to their cliques. and thus ice breakers and games were rather quiet.

mystery game was fun though!

left for time trial halfway. (which i screwed up. but i will talk about that another time)

second day was better. our group was more bonded, and we werent clique-ish anymore. hooray! haha. commisioning night was really funny.

THE ROCK! hahahh


and our cheer rocks, okay:

S-U-P-R, SUPER, THATS WHAT WE ARE,
S-O-L-I-D, SOLID, THATS WHAT WE ARE.
SUPER SUPER *clapclap*
SOLID SOLID *clapclap*
SUPER SOLID *clapclap*
SOLID SUPER *clapclap*
CHICKALAKA PIAH PIAH
CHICKALAKA PIAH PIAH SWAH. *clapclap**clapclap*
SWAH *clapclap*
SWAH SWAH SWAH SWAH
xi swah swah xi swah swah xi swah swah ooh ooh
xi swah swah xi swah swah xi swah swah KNIGHTS.

so anyway. werewolf was fun too! we got everyone addicted.

last day. aerial cleaning, youth got talent, cheer off, photos, prizes blah.

and i got to know people! aaron, deion, guo quan aka the rock, deborah huang, ivan, kenn, estella, yolande, zawoo, demi, tan wei.

but mostly aaron, deion, guo quan, deborah, ivan kenn and demi.

um. so yes. that was one camp.

Saturday, June 14, 2008 . 21:33

soo today was training.

horrible. stupid junior. he doesnt even deserve the damn boat.

gah whatever. anyway, turns out i might be k2-ing with cliff which is rather shocking cause we only took once. i mean no doubt we trashed ryan's ass but thats not that point. so we are having a time trial on monday to decide. sigh. if i dont get this, and i dont get the k4 (which we probably wont, since we are all sec 3s vs all sec 4s) i dont get an event. which really sucks.

wow im starting to write more in paragraphs nowadays.

tuition sucks. so, anyway, these few days will be fun. i hope.

Friday, June 13, 2008 . 21:34

oh well. friday the thirteenth. i still maintain my view that 11th june is my unlucky day.

so anyway, lets not talk about that. time trials the next day was, say, not very up to expectations. i mean, yeah we improved by 11 seconds and all that. but we are still 10 seconds short of a standard k4 timing. gah oh well. 3 more weeks.

i hate tuition btw. i mean AS IF 8/9 trainings a week + my own holiday hwk + my need to slack and dota every 'now and then' isnt enough. i still have tons of exercises and reading to do. gosh. not like 50/100 is very low. considering the highest was 58.

if you look at it in fact, im 8 marks away from top in class. say wow.

and to make it worse. he's the kind of teacher that "wants to be your friend". seriously. whats up with that. you are a tuition teacher. come here, teach, get lost.

ok note to self: stop ranting.

ok wait. just a bit more.

this is probably the WORST holiday everr. no social life whatsoever. zero. zip. none. only thing i do other than eat sleep train, is watch tv and the occasional dota. and as if thats not that bad, i havent TOUCHED my holiday homework. how screwed am i. dont answer that.

ok now i stop ranting.



where, exactly, is this going again?

Thursday, June 12, 2008 . 01:10

today is a bad bad bad day.

firstly. i cut my hair. needless to say, thats always a bad thing. cutting my precious hair.

secondly, I KEEP MAIKNG TYPOS.

thirdly, my frozen throne couldn't work for 10 minutes.

fourthly, i couldnt see gabriels game on hamachi OR ggc

fifthly, MY MSN GAMES COULDNT WORK. i mean srsly, even msn games?

sixthly (now the counting is starting to sound weird), i hit my knee against a piece of furniture. a piece of sharp furniture. 2 inch long cut. say it with me: OOuuucHHH

yes so i officially proclaim 11th June my unlucky day. help me remember.

i wanna watch zohan! hulk! the happening! get smart! and actually iron man too. a bit late but. yeah.


oh yeah i fell on my ass when trying to switch seat in the cinema today.

Saturday, June 07, 2008 . 23:05

ttb worship night one was just awesome.



but chinese tuition sucks.

Thursday, June 05, 2008 . 22:41

see that inspirational post yesterday? poof. gone. kazaam.

just too freaking slow. and with too useless crew members. half of them anyway. gosh. we need a miracle.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008 . 23:31

first 2 weeks almost over! we are this close to getting back half our social life back.

see the thing with wings there? thats my social life and ITS FLYING BACK. yay.

so. i have nothing much to say actually. life's been rather boring lately. train eat train eat sleep eat repeat.

interesting happenings can only consist of conversations behind the mac ritchie toilet and during dota games in between trainings.

how funnn.

but oh well. its not as bad as it seems. u feel rather good after training.

ok fine who am i kidding. this dual training thing sucks. cant wait for this week to be over.

on a separate note, nats are really soon. as much as i think that we (my k4, k2) are going to lose, i still hope that we can just continue to train hard and rise to the occasion. and at LEAST come away with a bronze or something.

especially the k4. as mr goh said, we have a chance! we are REALLY near the seniors. 3 secs over 500m, not a lot for k4. we just need to train a little harder.

yes, acsi is the champion team. and we are part of it.

and, as everyone shouts during training: COME ON GUYS!


this started off as a normal-just-for-the-sake-of-posting post. but it turned out to be some inspirational, slightly emo, speech.

ah well. i digress a lot.

Sunday, June 01, 2008 . 22:35

oh why, this is new.

hmm. i wonder.